The Truth Of Being


Ishvara:

All things in your life have their origin in consensus-reality beliefs. You are hypnotized into accepting those things as your reality. Whatever you believe to be true, Life will accommodate and validate. If you believe you are worthless, Life will keep proving to you that you are worthless. People with the same attachment to being worthless will come into your life and confirm your worthlessness.

Each concept has its own morphic field, and you participate in that morphic field by your resistance or attachment. Either one brings you into the same morphic field; you may experience different sides of it, but it is still the same thing. You spend time feeling sorry for yourself, or feeling bad, or feeling that there is something fundamentally wrong with you. Well, something is fundamentally wrong: your beliefs. You've accepted your beliefs as your reality, and you now experience that. But it is not fatal; it is just temporary.

You think that consensus reality (your belief) is your home, but it is not. You are just passing through; keep moving; don't stay there, because it is not who you are. All through your life people have told you who you are. People have said things about you. People around you have been mirrors, and you have looked at the mirrors to see what they are saying. But they are funhouse mirrors that are terribly distorted. You can't find out about yourself through those distorted mirrors. The only way to find out about yourself is to watch yourself, pay attention. Watch your reactions, watch your resistances, watch your attachments. All of those say things about you, but don't judge yourself for them. Don't take them personally. Just look at them.

Life becomes so much easier when you stop having judgments and opinions. Life is so much easier when you just look, when you observe without the commentator. The actuality of Life is that there is no right or wrong; things are the way they are. Most things are consequences of other things, and if you really observe, you can see how things have come about, but that is still not grounds for judgment.

It is hard to accept things the way they are, because you know that there is more in you. In you, you know that things do not have to remain the way they are, even though you see ignorance all around you, you see people doing the same things over and over again, suffering and suffering.

As long as you live in separation, with a "they" and an outside to blame for what is happening, you will suffer. When you embrace the whole thing, when you are no longer separate from anything, you recognize how things are, and when you recognize how things are you gain tremendous power to see the more-ness of things. Humans tend to look at things egocentrically. Even religions advocate that: If you don't accept this belief, you will go to hell. If you don't follow certain rules, you will have to come back and do life over again. It is a misguided humanity, but no one is to blame; it is just something that people have accepted.

People think: "Jesus said it, so it must be true." "Buddha said that, so it must be true." The truth is that we have no idea what Jesus actually said, or what Buddha actually said. It is all hearsay, opinion, and interpretation. You cannot trust the past at all. You cannot rely on a system, structure, teacher or belief, or anything else from the past. You can only rely on what you have a direct experience of. And you can't have a direct experience if you are stuck in beliefs and concepts. That is why I tell you to move away from beliefs and concepts, to watch, to watch Life happen.

There is an abundance of truth around you all the time, if you watch. You can see how things work, if you watch, but if you get self centered, or caught up into suffering, it is as if you have blinders on, and you cannot see what is happening. The moment you get blinded, you move back into an interpretation, and you begin to act out the old way. It is like instant karma, instant past: take a belief, add a little bit of feeling sorry for yourself, and it blows out of proportion. The moment you start feeling sorry for yourself, the whole world begins to help you feel sorry for yourself. You join everyone in that big morphic field. The best thing to do when you catch yourself slipping into that thinking is just to laugh at yourself, because if you don't do that, if you don't catch yourself, you can waste much of your life.

I too spent a good deal of time feeling sorry for myself, until Life kicked me in the butt and said "Get over it; there is more to do than to feel sorry for yourself." I realized long ago that no one really gives a damn about me. The only people that cared about me were those who thought they might get something from me, and that was a pretended care. They pretended to care about me, because that was a way to control me, and I was stupid enough to go along with it and do what people wanted me to do. I wanted to "do the right thing." Then I realized that the "right thing" was their interpretation, and by doing the right thing I couldn't do "my thing," so I was in denial of me. I realized that "me" must exist for some reason; I didn't think I was an accident. Life doesn't make accidents. Everything is on purpose, and Life doesn't care if you don't like the purpose.

If I created the world, I would have made it different. Every baby that came into the world would immediately know that it is wanted, that it has purpose, and that it is not to pay any attention to its parents because they are stupid! Just don't buy what they tell you! The moment the priests or ministers come and tell you that you are going to hell, tell them they are already in hell. If they believe what they are saying, they are already there, because hell is self made, heaven is self made. The past is self made.

When you really think about it, you can realize that you don't really know what happened to you in the past. You have an opinion and an interpretation, and you believe that to be true, but is it? Does your state of mind in the past now make you a reliable witness? If you believe you are "less than," your entire view is skewed, while everything around you supports that belief. If you had that belief as a child, then you didn't really see what was happening. You just saw what you believed was happening, and you remembered what you believed, and you carry that luggage for the rest of your life. Let go of your luggage.

Insanity can exist all around you but you don't have to be insane. If you are watching, you can't be insane. If you are buying into what is happening, you are insane, but if you are watching, you can't be insane. When you are watching, you are seeing what is happening. Yes, you may have ups and downs. There is no assurance that life is going to be all roses. Even roses have thorns. Life gives contrasts, and if you are really watching, you can see them and make use of them. Don't fall into judgment on yourself; that doesn't do any good. Just see what is there; look at it. When you are really honest, when you are really present, you will come into knowing. You will know truth. You won't be attached or resistant to it, you will know it. You will know the truth of presence, being.

Written and transcribed by Terry Grant

This is the second installment of a message that I have transcribed and edited from a talk Ishvara gave on August 29, 2004. - TG.


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