The Authentic Self Waits


Ishvara:

Consensus belief would have it that awakening happens all the time, but a true awakening is a rare occurrence. Yet the awakened individuals all have been human; they came into the world the same way everybody else does: kicking, screaming, crying, pooping and peeing, totally dependent upon the benevolence of someone else. Such humble beginnings, such dependency on the world around them.

It seems understandable for humans to remain in such a state of dependency, subject to the "outside", always in search of a parent, someone who will make things better. At the same time, as is exemplified in children, there is resistance to the parent, resistance to any kind of authority, resistance to being told what to do: "I want to do it myself. I can do it; don't help me. I'll figure it out." At other times the child cries, "Help! I can't do it!" And so people spend their lives in a tug of war: torn between seeking authority and resisting authority, longing for the absolute but with an utter, total fear of the absolute. Such conflict is the human condition, and all the time the Authentic Self is waiting. Every once in a while I tune into that Authentic Self which is waiting. What is it waiting for? There is a feeling of energy, but it remains in the realm of feeling; waiting, waiting and waiting.

What happens when, for some reason -- usually when Life says "Now, it's time" -- an individual awakens to higher possibilities, seeing a bigger picture, knowing something that is transcendent of the normal way of seeing and experiencing? It is a burden of information. That individual knows full well that others won't understand. There will be suspicions; there will be doubt, maybe even fear, and resistance. Yet one is so inspired with that clarity that one must speak. One must tell; one must reveal. One must inspire. One can't do anything else.

So it is a dilemma, because what one knows at that point runs contrary to what was. It is like a changing of the guard, with new rules. It is not what it was before. A new possibility has entered into the picture. Mortal existence is fearful of it, but also attracted to it. It is a mystery. The intellect does what it can with the situation, but the intellect becomes quickly surpassed. The intellect is a mere program, programmed with conditional possibilities, a status quo of past experiences not quite understood, but conceptualized enough to create belief about what they meant.

Authentic awakenings serve Life, serve the planet, serve humanity in whatever way humanity is ready to be served. It is not a self-enclosed or isolated event. It is humanity itself that produces the awakening. Humanity calls for it at the very depths of existence, a unanimous synergy of the Authentic cells of all existence saying: "We're ready; we're ready for something more, the next step. Who will lead? Who will take the initiative? Who will stick their head on the chopping block?" The last question is asked, because resistance always follows transformation: "Wait a minute! Who says? How do we know this is authentic? What if?"

That is the way Life works: It is hidden, it is not obvious. What is obvious is the intellect, the consensus reality, the unending beliefs "about." Only the Authentic Self knows, and most of the time it's not talking. It sort of remains quiet and patient, waiting, waiting and waiting.

In a true awakening, humanity births itself as an individual who is able to focus, to attune, to resonate, to access a greater body of intelligence, and that individual's sole purpose becomes that of disseminating the intelligence to anyone who will hear, to anyone who will listen.

Many hear, but don't act. They wait. Many see, but don't move with it. They wait. Human nature says: "Let's wait and see. Let's just see if this is for real. We don't want to do something foolish. We have heard of groups following charlatans, false prophets, and getting into lots of trouble. We certainly don't want to do that. So wait and see." The Authentic Self also waits: It waits for you to see.

So it is. Life Self-regulates this whole process. It is not under the rule of control, or anything outside. It is a "within" job. It takes place within, because the within is the outside; there is no difference, no separation. It is hard for the intellect to grasp, because the intellect's nature is to look at things, to objectify things, to see things, while the Authentic Self doesn't need to see things; it just knows things. It doesn't need validation or affirmation. It doesn't care a bit about belief or doubt or fear or resistance or attachment; none of those things has anything to do with the real Life. They are all diversions, even entertainment. Entertainment takes place while the Authentic Self waits, waits for the possibilities, waits for the moments, waits.

Written and transcribed by Terry Grant

This is the continuation of a message I have transcribed and edited from a talk given by Ishvara on May 15, 2005. - TG.

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